I find in myself a need to get back to some kind of base, to re-define why it is I do all the crap I do, and just as I was beginning to worry that there was to be no method to my madness, I found a document on my computer with a list of life rules I pulled from some forum or something. I've long lost the name of whoever I got these from, and I definitely modified them a bit to fit within my worldview, but more interestingly, is a rules-based life what I want? I mean, I've always had ethical principals, and I modify them as I find necessary, but to what extent can even broad self-imposed mandates be right or wrong, even for me? And what does right or wrong even mean? There's definitely "right-" and "wrong-feeling," and there's the religious ethical code, and the sense of justice that laws are meant to defend. I suppose the best use for an ambiguous, lazy creature such as myself would be "right" as a square peg fits a square hole. So how do I know when I've found the most fitting way to be? Certain things that have felt like they might have fit in my life at one point have since proved to be quite incompatible with my often-contradictory nature. If I'm wrong about the fit of a guiding principal, what kind of chaos could I cause? At least I know that I'm not alone in my belief that the world does not have a guaranteed reward for anything. No matter what I do, I might never have any of the big things I want. But on the positive side, being "moral" is something I do for its own sake, since I can expect nothing from it. The smug satisfaction that I get from knowing that despite what I and most of close friends say, I'm a "good" person. Hear that, buddies? Not that anyone knows about this place. Maybe I'll eventually be comfortable enough with being/sharing myself to tell someone about it. That'll be the day. *shakes fist* You'll never get the chance to take me seriously! In the meantime, for the random people I don't know who might read them, here are those rules that have attracted my attention for the time being.
1. Happiness is at least as much a state of mind as it is a condition.
2. You are responsible for you. You are responsible for all of your action and hence for all of the foreseeable consequences of those actions. People make their own fate. Yes, there are victims, but most often, your own misfortunes are your own doing.
3. If you don't like they way things are going, the conditions of your life or something about yourself then change it. Don't whine about it and expect it to change itself.
4. Everyone has opinions. That doesn't mean everyone is right. However, don't give up on yours just because someone tells you that you are wrong.
5. If someone doesn't like who you are or something you do then fuck them. You don't have to answer to anyone and if push comes to shove, you don't need someone like that around. Always be true to yourself.
6. Know the people who love you and stand beside them. One day you are going to need them to stand by you.
7. If you are afraid to try, know this: if you give up you will almost certainly fail, and definitely have failed yourself. However, if you try you might win. Possible success' is a lot better odds than 'almost certain failure'.
8. Let the little things slide, because, seriously, who needs that kind of aggravation?
9. If you live only for the weekends, you're wasting an awful lot of time.
10. You are always worth it.
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